Thursday, July 30, 2009

LA dee daa da DAKH

I am back from work! I am also back from Ladakh. But I am not back to who I used to be.

Not because I am done with my holiday.
Not because I went to work.
Not because I am home.
Not for these obvious reasons
but for those unknown!

The powerpoint for tomorrow's meeting looms! The futility of it even more! It was a sad coincidence that I could not be online today from work, just when I thought I should, I would and wished I could!

When I was in the mountains
I did not forget to remember,
To gaze at the night time skies
Gaze at the myriad falling stars
Lodging stardust in my eyes.

I did not forget to remember
To crane my neck until it hurt
At mountains sculpted by the winds
Indescribable in words!

I did. I did it to the fullest. Craned and strained. I am carrying sore memories in my neck.

I have a tan and a lot less hair. More stares. Less shackles. More questions. Lesser answers.

Stargazing is not my thing in act, it is in its idea.
I cannot tell constellations.
I cannot tell Venus.
I can tell the moon and that's more than enough!

It was cold and windy and I was clad in 4 layers of clothes while the sun burnt my nose. Nosequake!

Mountains are life rehabilitating. (Rehabilitation: The process of restoration of skills from an illness or injury so as to regain maximum self-sufficiency and function in a normal or as near normal manner as possible. For example, rehabilitation after a stroke may help the patient walk again and speak clearly again)

They REHABILITATE. They DETOX.
The pressure to stay clean is high.

I have Harry Potter to discover. And Terry Pratchett. I have discovered and lost myself in Madrid, Peter Gabriel and Patrick Watson. My mountain gifts from a fellow traveler! Thank you Jace.

I wish I had MORE things than PEOPLE to get lost in!
People do not provide enough ground to lose myself in.
The one's with depth come by rarely. I know that's the way it is. But why does it have to make itself HEARD!??!

If there is YUMMY Biryani waiting for me, what will help? Eating it first in order to feel good and THEN work on the crappy powerpoint presentation

OR

Getting done with the crappy powerpoint presentation FIRST and FAST knowing there is Biryani waiting?

Why am I so resistance dyslexic?

I love Biryani and hate powerpoint presentations.

Monday, July 6, 2009

LiPsTick

I started packing today. In my list of “things to pack” was my lip-balm! Glossy red and strawberry flavored!


I remembered a moment as I clutched the tiny round container in my hand before I could throw it in with the rest of the toiletries! I remembered a sepia toned snapshot.
…of tall trees, a winding road, a breathtaking sunset and snow-capped peaks looking candy flossed in the setting sun’s light or lack of it. The pinkness asserting itself amidst the sepia of the rest of the snapshot!


The sepia tone comes from the twilight of that evening…when a sumo with a family of four lumbered along a long winding road climbing higher and higher. My parents, well into 15 years of marriage, resolutely patient enough to take two young children, one grumpy (me) the other quiet (he), on a vacation!


It got colder and colder and mom helped us into our sweaters and scarves! Warm and toasty we were, but, feeling sicker with each curve and more and more tired!
Until mom did the coolest thing ever! She turned my head to face her, held my face by the chin with one hand and with the other she applied lipstick to my lips. HER lipstick! Glossy and sweet tasting! That thing I was not supposed to wear because I was not old enough. That thing I never dared to touch. She saw the utterly confused look on my face!


“Chapped lips are not good! The cream got left in the big bag. This is all I have at the moment to keep your lips soft”.

I willingly complied.


Having realized the novelty in it for me, she smiled and said, “Sometimes, small girls wear lipstick!”

The lipstick softened the rough journey ahead for a grumpy child!

The lip balm is safely in my bag!

Ladakh Looms.

Right now… this snapshot does!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

ColoUr BlinDed

Blues,
Of Denims blue,
That tore without a clue!
My Denims wore away,
Adding to the monsoon grey.

Green,
Of the muddled puddles
Of my murky monsoon mind
Swimming in it is a rainy day
Adding to the monsoon grey.

Brown,
Of the ground beneath my feet
That was, that I no longer tread
Without a way to find a way
Adding to the monsoon grey.

Rainbow colors,
Of 3 nose studs.
And countless chats
Whitewashing the monsoon grey……


From thousands of miles away
Thank you Ramya.